July 27-31

27 July.

Soft living breeds new and extravagant desires.

Life can only be lived as life. The will lives in the present, not the nostalgic past or utopian future.

28 July.

Last two nights watching racing—F1 show, Senna doc—elements of Prost style: strategy, preparation, concentration.

29 July. Burned hand reaching into oven. Skin peeled off, shape of a mouth.

30. Roman pietas, Ghibelline chivalry— “The eternal inside us is what is important.”

31. Beckett and Pinter would’ve rather been cricketers than writers.

Archetype: frail thoughtful one and his gallon jar of resentment.